Hey yall! wow its been a really really long time so i figured id update real quick cuz im tierd of starin at the last one! hope everyone is doin good! lifes great for me! esp being a senior! cant wait. me harley brandon kayela chris and tiffany are all going to cancun june 1st! its gone be a blast! nothing interesting going on really.just tryin to catch up with old friends that i love so dearly! hilly livy wendy and jordi! muah! but im going back to work hope all goes well with everyone! <<3 Shana Marie

hey yall.. lifes pretty much good jus very emotional n sad rite now.. i feel like sumins missin. jus dunno wat.. dont feel like writin so im puttin things bout how i feel..luv yall <<3 Shawni Marie<<3

I'm so scared that the way I feel,

Is written all over my face.

When you walk into the room,

I wanna find a hiding place.

We used to laugh, we used to hug, the way that old friends do.

But now, a smile and a touch of your hand,

Just makes me come unglued.

Such a contridiction, do I lie or tell the truth.

Is it fact or fiction,

Oh the way I feel for you.

So complicated, I'm so frustrated.

I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,

I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay.

Should I say it.

Should I tell you how I feel.

Oh, I want you to know.

But then again I don't. It's so complicated.

Oh..just when I think I'm under control.

I think I got a grip.

Another friend tells me that, I'm always on your lips.

They say I'm more than just a friend, they say I must be blind.

Well, I admit that I've seen you watch me from the corner of your eye.

Oh, It's so confusing. I wish you'd just confess.

But think of what I'd

be losin', if your answer isn't yes.

Oh, I hate it. 'Cuz I've waited.

So long for someone like you

Oh, what do I do.

Oh should I say it.

Should I tell you how I feel.

I want you to know,but then again I don't.

It's so complicated..

++Carolyn Dawn Johnson

 

one day you look at a person 'n see

more than you did  the day before 

like a switch was flicked somewhere

& that person who was just a friend

suddenly is the only person you

wanna spend the rest of your life with

 

"Would we still be good friends, If I told you I love you?"

 

I must be crazy, I mean absolutely crazy to think that my best friend in the whole world would actually f a l l  for me

 

I know you just want to be friends & that`s ok with me, but please just stop making me fall even harder

 

 

Sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once, sometimes you’ll find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time, at times you absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guarantees except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes and falling in love will change your life.

     

everyone keeps tellinq me
to just get over you &&  `'
move on but they obviously
don't understand just how
hard i've already tried . . .

if i could take back one thinq
it would be the niqht i let you
out of my reach && into hers

she finally let qo of her fake smile and the tears slowly ;; rolled down her face

luv yall.. muah nitenite

Wat up yall? notta lotta here jus chillin at tha house.. i culdnt go work out tonite cuz of family probs.. sux but im goin tom.skools goin good along with everything else..im threw with guys tho.. haha i knoew.. how many times have yall heard that.but im seriously taken a break..their all tha same.. ive been maken this good friendship great..at least for me.. hes a really kool guy n soo easy to talk to..its nice to find a friend wen ur world goes crazy..n the funnie thing is..he prolly doesnt even know.. newho ape hasnt called me..haha no surprise huh?i guess thats y i got so mad to begin with..cuz i knew this wuld happen.haha tyler i changed my song finally.but thats nuff for now.. luv yall bunches n bunches <<3 Shawni Marie<<3

it kills me to finally know
that after all that - after everything
that happened - you can just walk
away, forgetting it all.

hey hoes n gangstas! what is up? notta lotta down here n tha sizzouth.. haha wow im hilarious! newho!as yall can see i changed my background! things arent perfect but im ok! these past couple of days have been good.. as always!!been hangin out with my darlin sweet kyle! woo~hoo. hes such a darlin!skools been fun i guess.. i laugh soo hard everyday.. ive dun ben told this week that i look like a bitch. not that its a bad thing i jus look bitchy.. which was hilarious cuz denver sed it n shes so darn hilarious! then she sed i wuld be regina off of mean girls.. yall jus have to be there! tyler is one kool kid..i never really realized how kool he was! haha we have had the funniest convos at lunch.he cracks me up.. today we were talkin bout his future job.. as a porn star.. n it was funnie cuz all the otha guys were like tryin to say them too n me n tyler were crackin on them! ive been workin out tryin to get in shape but i messed up my wrist.. it hurts! haha kyles at senior camp n im on the phone with him n their miserable! newho tom nite me n hannah r posed to go to joshuas cup to do sum art thing.. its gone be fun fun fun lol.. but ima bout to go do me sum homework! holla pimps <<3 Shawni Marie <<3

when someone you love abandons you, it doesn't hurt just because they've changed or lied or went back on their promises, but because you know what they really are & what a beautiful person they can be & they take that away from you & won't let you see that beautiful person again, well nothing hurts more than having someone just decide to take your entire world away without consulting you first

hey yall! aagghh!! i had soo much fun tonite! but lemme start with the day! it was perdy tight.. i went to skool n we had spirit day! n seniors r like awesome! thats the only thing i like better than cfca..we had a drumline march to the peprally which had to be held n the stadium cuz of too many ppl! n pplo were booty dancin n it was jus crazy! lol but the cheerleaders get booed there!! i was like omg! n 2day at lunch we had the most funiest convo ever! haha tyler is a loser!we talked a/b wat the last things u wuld do b4 u died n if u were starvin n crap! haha skydivin!! but we all laughed soo freakin hard! wow.. u just had to be there! then ton. omg i knew me n kyle were doin sumin but i thought we were jus watchin a movie at my house but he called n told me to get ready.. he brought me roses n took me to my (our) fav restaurant mikatas.. o so sweet then we came home n chilled but it was an amazing fun sweet nite! so that was basically it! hehe ima guna go now! lifes almost completelywonderful.tha only thing left is the whole ape thing! luv yall! <<3 Shawni Marie<<3

You make me feel so weak ...
but don't get me wrong i actually like the feeling